Carry the Dog by Stephanie Gangi

Published by Algonquin Books on November 2, 2021

Carry the Dog is told in the first person by a woman who is nearing the age of sixty. Berenice (or Bea or Bean or Berry) Marx-Seger is still trying to find herself. She has a moderately famous ex-husband named Gary Going, a dying father named Albert, a brother she hasn’t seen in years named Henri (or Henry or Hank), a 22-year-old half-sister named Hannah (or Echo), no children, and temporary custody of a neighbor’s dog. Her immediate problems are a cancer scare, a potential museum exhibition of her dead mother’s controversial photography, and a growing feeling of loneliness that might be exacerbated by her hookups with her unfaithful ex. The dog’s indifference to her existence isn’t helping.

Bea is the child of Miri Marx, who was nearly charged with child pornography for featuring her nude children (including Bea) in photographs. Whether their poses were artistic or salacious is a matter of opinion. Bea’s opinion is unresolved, although she still feels the discomfort of being known as one of the Marx children.

Henry’s twin brother died in a fire while the boys were still young. Miri committed suicide a few months after taking photos of children at Woodstock. Bea twice married and divorced Gary, a rock star in an opening-act band who is now seventy but still seeking the spotlight. Bea wrote Gary’s biggest hit but has no ownership interest in the song. Judging by the lyrics, it’s a good song.

Stephanie Gangi juggles several dramatic plot elements. Bea’s life is full of unresolved issues and regrets. She regrets her age, her inability to attract the touch of a young man. She doesn’t know how to respond to MOMA’s request for access to a storage unit filled with her mother’s photographs and notes. Perhaps she should instead sell everything in the unit (she needs the money), but is that the right thing to do? She finds footage shot by a documentarian in the storage unit and comes to understand the impact that the documentarian had on her mother and on her twin brothers. She feels that she has been betrayed by the significant actors in her life: her mother, Gary, and most recently, Echo. Sometimes she’s right and sometimes she makes assumptions based on incomplete information, as dramatic people tend to do.

A series of events force Bea to reevaluate her life. Did she abandon her family or did they abandon her? Should she try to reconnect with her living brother or is it too late? Did her mother abuse her by photographing her in the nude or is that something she’s been told by people who don’t understand the creation of art? Did her mother have demons of her own that drove her to exploit her children? Are Bea’s memories of her childhood accurate or has she suppressed trauma? In one of the novel’s most insightful moments, Bea realizes that she needs to organize the memories of her past so they take up less space, making room for the present.

Bea has collected a good amount of baggage in her life, but the plot never seems forced. Bea’s unusual life has produced unusual problems, but Gangi makes them seem like real problems, the kind of problems that someone who was raised by a self-absorbed parent and who ran away as a teen with an older rock star might have. Bea is never weepy about her circumstances and the reader is never asked to pity her, but it is easy to sympathize with Bea’s difficulty coping with her accumulation of life-changing issues. When, at sixty, she takes small and indecisive steps to start cleaning up the mess, her decisions seem completely natural.

This is difficult material for a writer to handle without going over the top, but Gangi crafts Bea as a credible, sympathetic character whose coping skills are constantly tested. When Bea says “Half the time I feel like I’m invisible to the world and the other half I am disappearing myself,” she’s expressing authentic feelings that are shared by a large group of people.

With fluid and straightforward prose, Carry the Dog teaches a valuable lesson — we are the sum of our parts, all the parts, not just the trauma. Life is always changing and the story isn’t written until it ends. It is a verity of psychologists that confronting the past is the only way to escape from its grip. Bea’s journey, her stops and starts as she gains the courage to examine her life, to define herself by her entire life and not just its worst moments, to live in the present instead of the past, makes a compelling story.

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